Possibly my first and last public entry but after certain comments and certain events, I feel that I need to address a couple of issues.

LJ

Although I do write typical stuff like daily issues and posts random photo things, I do tend to write a lot of extremely personal and deep stuff. Some can be rather discomforting, others offensive. And there are those posts of those certain sites I visit that I get really critical of at times that such expressions of criticism may be frowned upon if I post things out in the public.

But despite both the positive and negative lights that I display, you have to keep in mind that this is my journal! A journal is equivalent of a diary, meaning personal. If I write with you readers 100% on my mind, worrying of little things, I'm giving in to censorship. Although I think of you folks when I write, I don't worry about whether or not I will piss you off.

I'm open minded about a lot of things, bizzare or not. However, I'm not someone who easily opens up and even in a private journal, there are things that I do keep to myself.

My LJ used to be public. But there were people who really added me just because they have had a glance at me on FF until I noticed that some don't really care, that they just added me only because that they have glanced at me before.

That, and anonymous posters. While I do respect and appreciate opinions of those not on my friend's list, I feel no respect to anonymous posters who leave comments without revealing who they are. Sure...the word anonymous...you don't have to reveal who you are. That's the whole point, right? However, no matter your intentions, good or bad, I do lose a bit of respect for those who use the cowardly act of leaving responses without saying who they are.

I would like to point out that just because you leave anonymous posts, even if they are critical, I will not start lambasting and hunting you down, being like a wild animal. No! And I will not waste my time looking to who you are if you choose to remain anonymous.



Photography:

Most of you on FF and LJ have pretty much notice that I get too artsy with my photos (and lately photoshopped). Unfortunately, with a creative thirst, I don't post a lot of candid shots these days and nearly all photos that I've posted were done by me.

Some of you asked if I was getting in to modeling. I think modeling is a really competitive field. Physically, I don't meet those standards. I think it's a weight issue. Seriously. I'm not exactly a normal/skinny person.

Also, those photos are not for MySpace. In fact, they are the last place that I would post it since I don't use MySpace as much as I used to. Mostly it's for show and for deviantART.


Seeking Attention?:

Whether it be posting my daily thoughts or photos, or posting personal issues here in my LJ or FF, I post those because I want to. If it's in public, as long as it doesn't break rules. However, I don't post personal thoughts or photos to seek attention or expecting feedback, despite it's benefits. There are times that I would put myself down on appearance and weight. However, in response to a comment, I have only made a remark of that once on FF.

I do not seek attention nor fishing for comments. I don't put myself down to gain sympathy because that's just freaking sad.

While it is in humanistic nature to have the desire to grab attention at any chance, I don't seek attention in a way that is demeaning and that is to act like someone I'm not.



I really hope this clears out a lot of things.

If you can read this as well as my past two entries, then it seems that my absence is going to be longer than just a "weekend".

So I went to SuperGeeks with my mom so they could check out my laptop and see what they could do with it. Apparently, I guess because it's almost 3 years old (and actually running decent), they're also afraid of risking breaking my computer when it came to attempting to sauter the wires that came apart together. So they brought up on getting a new main board for my laptop but the problem is, it's about $300-$700 just to pull that off. So my mom suggested it's better to get a new laptop since they tend to get cheaper around the Holidays and probably transfer most of my files there. So there's the downfall. I can't transfer any of the programs I installed in the past and McAfee...ahhh! Do I have to deal with this again??

So yeah...I would still be around since my brother's nice enough to lend me his computer for the time being and that I could check in during school breaks. Problem is on when I'm going to get a new laptop because my semester ends on Dec. 7 and I don't know what will happen during my break.

So whoever I saved on my MSN/AIM/Yahoo, I won't be on for a while. And I think some of you know who you are hehehehe

Oh by the way Melissa, could you send me that Paint.NET program that you sent me a while back so at least I can save it once I get my laptop? Thanks-a-bunch if you have the time.

Oh well, enough of my daily rant, I'm out...I think.

~+Kris

Apparently, it's not only my adaptor that's being the problem...actually, it's been done for for quite some time. But also the plug where I have to plug the adapter in to the computer has kinda broke apart so the guy from Circuit City told me to try out SuperGeeks to get that minority fixed. Apparently, CC told me that they couldn't fix my computer because it wasn't from their store >.< !!

So for now, I'm updating...or whatever I'm updating, from my brother's computer.

All my MSN and Yahoo and AIM friends, hopefully I'll come back after this weekend. Just as long as those people from SuperGeeks do not destroy my laptop in the process! Otherwise, comments, random stuff, and other things will be taken ^.^

So apparently, I was reading the funnies in the papers this morning while waiting for my brother to get ready so he could drop me off to school (I don't have the car today...which sucks) and there is this one strip from Family Circus where the kid asks his sister "What kind of sound does a turkey makes when it uses a computer?" Obviously, his sister has no clue so the answer to his little riddle is "Google, Google, Google."

It's been a while since I've read that comic.

Anywho, I'm not gonna be on this Thanksgiving weekend. But this isn't one of those reasons because I have to get together with my folks and start saying grace while eating turkey and stuffing.

Nope, my computer's battery is dead. Unfortunately, my adaptor and my computer do not seem to want to cooperate with one another. So I have to head for Circuit City to have my computer checked out since my cousin suggested that to me because he noticed that the computer plug had a tendency to come loose when I tried plugging it in. Obviously, I have to order a new adaptor anyway because that thing has been long screwed. There are places where I would plug that thing in the outlet and the charger would not light up *irked*

So at the moment, I'm typing from my school's computer. Chances of me being on during the 4 day weekend are very slim unless if my cousin shows some mercy and lets me use their computer.

AHHHHH!!!